Rage Against the Husband

I know...The title says it all. I started to feel light-headed again and checked my blood, but it was fine. I felt weak after my son got home from school, which is THE WORST time to feel sick because my oldest son has a disability and needs to be looked after. Strike 1. He was pretty calm though and so I put yet another movie on*I know, Mother of the year* in the living room this time and decided to nap on the couch.

I took one of my famous 15 minute naps, which after I continued to feel sick. I got up and felt a kink in my neck. Strike 2. I then realized I hadn't gone to the store today because I was all out of lettuce for my salad. I love my lean and green meals, but mainly because I LOVE SALAD!

How come we can't ever have just like a salad?

 I have always loved a good salad. I just don't feel full yet without a salad. So I called up my husband and asked him to pick me up some lettuce on his way home from work because my dinner depends on it. I'm supposed to eat at 6:00pm and my husband got off at 4:30pm. He had to stop at the bank and then the store so he took a little longer then expected and came home at 6:30. I know, not that big of a deal, but that was Strike 3 for me!  By the time he got home, I was unleashing some suppressed inner ravenous fat girl demon on him. I think it was a combination of the 3rd day on this diet, the fact that I didn't feel too good, and today I actually was missing food made me just go psycho.

 I feel so bad because literally after I ate my salad & chicken breast, I was so happy. hahahhaha I feel crazy because I don't like feeling out of control. I apologized to my husband and my kids. One thing I hate is when I get mad, my husband gets all the wrath. I mainly give my kids the one look that Mothers can give, where even toddlers are like 'I'm not messing with that right now' kind of look.

This embodies the look that I give, but Michelle looks like this  constantly.

 I told my husband please do not fear me. Just curl up into the fetal position on the couch and hold out for 15 minutes or at least until I am done eating. He seems okay now and maybe that's because I'm on the computer and he's in the front with the kids. I called him like 10 seconds ago and you could barely hear his voice, but I could hear him cringe. hahaha All right, well now that the demon in me has left.I'm still going strong. I did CHEAT for the first time, but nothing major. I put an extra swish of salad dressing on my salad because I rushed putting on my 2 tbsp of salad dressing that I didn't mix it all the way to the bottom. You would too if you had this salad dressing! Too die for! I love it.

It's not my proudest moment, but I'm going to have to let that one slide because I don't want to be too negative on myself before FatGirlDemon comes out. Sheesh. My poor family. I'll make it up to them. I realize now that I'm counting down to when I can sleep because I'm so tired. Hopefully tomorrow will be smooth sailing! Wish me luck tonight :)