Although my parents were good parents, meal time rituals were never established consistently. We never had a set time of 6pm is dinner, 7am is breakfast. It was sort of a free for all, like many Polynesian households I have seen. You pretty much eat whenever something is cooking, but if nothing was cooking you better find yourself something to eat. As a young kid, I would pretty much have to tell them when I was hungry and then they would feed me. Having children now, I know that establishing meal times and controlling what they eat is not only attainable, but imperative. It shapes their habits all through their life. I only say this from experience.
I find it so odd that my Mom was not more into meal prep because my Grandma was a S.A.H.M on the military base in California and had breakfast, lunch, and dinner ready all the time. I see old pictures of my Mom and her siblings *all 5 of them at the time, 3 more came later* at the dinner table all nice and clean like some Norman Rockwell/Paul Gaugin mix painting from the 50's. I guess I shouldn't be all that surprised. My mom kind of rebelled throughout her life.
I think I'm just trying to hash out when and why I started eating the way I have been. Sleep time, meal time, what you are eating, all matter. It all comes down to habits. When I got into my teens I was actually more fit then I thought I was, but still eating bad. I kept comparing my body with the girls at school, which I know now was NOT fair in anyway of me to do that. I am naturally big boned, if you will. My stature is bigger then the blondes & brunettes at school. At my skinniest I still always felt huge to them because I was. My eating was all over the place. I wasn't a sweets freak or ate candy all the time. My weakness has always been starchy foods/sides. I loved rice, potatoes, pasta, bread, mac and cheese. I ate lots of chicken, but the portion of chicken compared to the portion of my sides was no match. I always loved fried foods as well. All the fatty foods. Fries, corn dogs, onion rings, mozzarella sticks, just straight up battered, fried crap.
No longer appeals to me! I just see a bunch of fat staring at me. |
As I type these foods, it no longer makes me hungry which is SO WEIRD! I'm actually getting disgusted because I remember how I felt after eating all these foods. Bloated, sick, and greasy. Wow. That's a huge shocker for me and a mini accomplishment. I thought while writing all my old favorite foods I would miss them, but it was the opposite. *Sorry, I'm celebrating the fact that maybe my brain is being re-wired to think the right way about food* Anyways, sorry I'm rambling. I just wanted to write my thoughts this morning because I have been really trying to understand where I came from so I can progress and know where I am going. I want to give my kids a chance by feeding them the best and letting them feel their best. We look back at mistakes of others, our own mistakes, and just try our hardest not to make the same ones and correct as we go along.
I tried to go running this morning, but was UNpleasantly surprised by SNOW! I know Utah has the "Greatest Snow on earth", but I'm about to move out of this state because this winter was SO HORRIBLE! I have been getting cabin fever this whole winter and thought the snow was gone, but it's back. And it was like WHITE OUT blizzard snow. ANNOYING! All right then. I gotta wake up the husband for work.
Woke up to this! Others would find this breathtakingly beautiful. I , on the other hand, am SO OVER IT! |
Food for thought: What bad eating habits did you form when you were younger?
My answer: Eating while watching t.v. or reading. 2 things you shouldn't do because you are not mindful of what you are putting in your body at the time. You are more likely to overeat.
Wish me luck :)
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